Breakfast with Mom.

At the breakfast table with my mom.......A closer look at my mom's piece of mind on having peace of mind.
Like many of us, my mom had her own share of catastrophic falls and fair share of glorious moments.  After 78 years, what unfolded was something she never expected.  She got peace.  One morning while tending to her plants, she was shaken upon hearing the words of Pastor John Hagee that the greatest gift one can receive in this life is peace of mind.  Mom's hearing is no longer as great and specially so when she's so focused with her plants but then surprisingly with that one statement she resonated very well.  She screamed in joy like one time when she found her missing heirloom at the potted plants.  I thought it was but told me instead "I think I found it", I asked what did you find , she said Peace of Mind....Looking back from her past, really she really did achieve much but lost a lot too.  When she moved to Kauai she (so we thought) crept her way to prominence.  Kauai was both a humbling and glorious experiences.  She started from scratch stripped with everything and left only with her faith and a fair amount of fear of the unknown..  She even took a second job as a dishwasher at a Japanese restaurant Kintaro where she has to deal with huge pots and pans and hundreds of dishes at a fast pace and to think I've never seen her wash dishes before out of privilege and esteem accorded to her.  Yet she didn't mind and took them in as part of her own learning process.  Until an opportunity came that she moved to Prudential and became a star insurance agent in her own right.  If you can come to our humble home, I placed her numerous plaques of awards and appreciations in our wall to remind her of her colorful achievements.  After Prudential, she had all the body repairs...heart by pass, hip replacements, pacemaker and has to deal with her diabetes and heart issues since then....Finally her wings were clipped and again this time she can no longer assert her will as she used to.  Five years ago she joined me here in LA and slowly her transformation began.  I saw how she slowly accepted her new lifestyle and with all humility she accepted the big change.  I am a loving yet I am also a contentious strong willed son having lived on my own for the last 16 years in LA plus 10 years before that after she  she migrated in Hawaii.  It was a process for both of us to start and build a communication line and we have always referred to our faith...It was almost tumultuous but we both hold our horses and tried to see common grounds and always the words of God comes out.  Slowly we decided to now focus our thoughts to His teachings and words.  We decided to go to the mass as often as we can.  We devoted more time to listen and watch TBN for God's words, we joined Bible studies, and started one in our own home with some friends.  Evidently our auto pilots has changed.  It is now a growing grateful awareness and automatically and in effect I know it is subconscious.  The time probably has come and it came with a process....First of all there is this unfailing faith that so sustains us in our five years of some roller coaster together.  But the last two years has started to shift for with faith we hoped for our own deliverance and for our dreams, with hope we decided to be obedient or we do our best to be, with obedience we endure, we became patient and in time with more and more Words and prayers we slowly became still and more dependent on God.  Slowly surrendering our will to Him and all our dreams and hope. and slowly Peace came in  our hearts.  At this point.. worry, anger, doubt, fear became less and less prominent.....Though we still experience them like hard rocks that comes and hit us yet it has become easier to discern and avoid as already they became signs of spiritual poisons.  This is actually why I love Mat 6:33 Seek Ye first the Kingdom of God and all His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.  It speaks of the journey of seeking asking knocking of that elusive truth.  I thought it was just a restless sinful beingness but it is a part of a personal journey to seek the Truth, the state of grace the state of the Kingdom.