Tuesday, June 30, 2009

MJ in ME


The Michael Jackson in US

Farewell to the King. Thank you for singularly reinventing, recharting and reshaping the entire world of the music industry. He single handedly broke barriers to a lot of aspects in our own lives. He put race to equal footing long before Tiger Woods, Oprah or Barak Obama (Rev. Al Sharpton). His music has captured four generations. It was a lifetime achievement hands down.

His is a product of a soul so evolved and focused on perfection. His craft was so exact that it appealead globally. Yet he was described to be shy by those whom he had worked or had befriended with. A roster of stellar personalities came out and put forward their own experiences of him. How did he put the world in his palm?

Through his music. He sang through his heart and gutted every heart that heard it. I personally remember him first with I'll Be There then came Ben and of course the Christmas album carrier Give Love on Christmas day. He sang them with so much intensity that though it was at a young age, it has touched and moved so many hearts anyway like someone old.. Then the Mega hits came Off The Wall, Bad, Thriller, Beat It and more hits. He perfected his craft. He's way ahead of his time and generation.Like Einstein, Edison, Ford, Carnegie, Scwab, Michaelangelo, Van Gogh and hosts more of our great predecessors and light bearers in different fields of interests, their influence is global. They are bigger than their generation to digest. He had painfully parried so many attacks on his person. But his works will speak for his greatness. I am sure he knew that he is one gifted person. He was indistractibly focused to his craft and delivered them superbly in each spectacular concert.

Finally Michael is indisputably a 24k minted icon.

But in my eyes, i shared some similar experiences on a personal level. I grew up to be real bubbly until I was slowly teased to be dark, skinny, ugly and always compared with somebody. I tried to deny and assert myself more but as I did, the stakes got higher until I came face to face with myself in my adolescent years where the challenge got more daunting. I put up a strong front until I became competitive and sensitive. Very sensitive that criticisms became an assault to my person as I came to realize I am having to face everything all by myself. My Dad died when I was 13 and was not exactly very supportive of my hopes. Cut the crap, I was left trying to defend myself where I tried to be the best in my situation. I have to survive so I tried to put up my nicest self to shield me until I got lost in a myriad of conflicting events that crushed my soul.

But I am a winner by nature and tried all ways and means to validate my positive outlook in life through prayers and more prayers until I took off and went deeper down to myself and tried to unlock one by one the mysteries that had then shackled me. I've seem my Christian life merging my new found knowledge about New Age. I've read Eckart Tolle's The New Earth, The Power of Now, Esther and Jerry Hich's Abraham series, Donald Trump's Think Big and Kick Ass, The Secret by Rhonda Byrnes, Napoleon Hill's Think and Grow Rich aand I was able to navigate Rick Warren's The Purpose Driven Life.

After all, the message was the same. I have to know and believe in myself that I am created perfect by whom I owe this life and whom actually I am a part.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

This Journey

This Journey
I travelled half way around the world
To find a new hope
Walk the usual path
I realized this just geography
For I carry same thoughts
Brought with me same outlook
So i took a different way
Look outside the box of faith
Just faith no questions
Pure dozage
And slowly I am taking a different flight
That all along the answers are in me
Just believing again
Start loving again
Just Myself.


Our Journey


Let us own the universe and know that it owns us too. From the sterling and inspired minds of the great men and women who came before us and those with us today had continuously fan the thought that we share the same energy.

I wanna share my own realization stories after a long streak of amnesia. Too many to grasp but looking back and knowing where I stand at this moment, the reality drips more deliciously to exhilirating process of understanding how i even got here in the first place.

That I never gave up says much of my spirit to survive and know the truth behind what's on my plate. I started being religious to the core but its promises seemed to blurr more its wisdom each year and challenge that comes by. The kicking and the pulling inside me under the auspices of my religion can't seem to contain my burgeoning burden of questioning my faith and reality. Iam sure many of us share this sentiment and underwent to the same debilitating search.

In fear of offending my God, my self serving self importance had detached me farther. Fears, doubts and anger had provided more doors closing on me. Now to undo and open all those doors and unlock my own fortune to now is a glorious feat to own. Join me in this wonderful journey.